Fear of the Unknown

I have a job interview today... For a full time job.

My whole "employment" life, I've always had the usual summer jobs: lifeguard, camp worker, clothing store model, office assistant, ect. Now, I'm married and I feel the need to contribute to my family. Working in an office, 40 hour work-week, and benefits; what have I gotten myself into.

I am scared. Growing up is not glamorous or exciting, it's just downright scary. My husband (GB) and I are pretty proud of our free-spirit nature. We LOVE to just go, wherever the wind takes us, just go. Our hearts belong to God, each other, and Africa. Its a passion we both agree on more than anything, the need to GO.

So if I have a desire to GO with my husband, why am I applying for a full-time job that I will be at ALL summer? Is this what God has made me to be, a "working wife"? Am I to be in America living the "American Dream" the rest of my life?

This job is a great opportunity to borden myself. I want to learn and grow. I don't think that I am going to be a "house-wife" forever. My heart tells me that we are going to travel the world and just love on people. I do think that we are going to have to pay our dues. I pray that we are where we need to be to learn about God and His glory. We are ready to grow.

New things are coming, prepare our hearts Papa.


"Remember not the former things,
nor consider the things of old.
Behold, I am doing a new thing;
now it springs forth, do you not
perceive it?" Isaiah 43:18